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Daily journal July 08 2026

 Popularly, It is hard to live with the truth of ourself. We are scared of being not wise, poor, unvaluable, ugly, no famous.... And the humorous is that we accept only the good beautiful aspect and avoid the other side. The fear is the biggest weakness that someone can take advantage and lure us to the bad.  My office toilet is stuck. It is not my job to fix it. It is kind of disgusting with shit and dirty things. However I do not know I happily do it without any command from my boss. But I am in middle of 2 things. I want to save boss money (it costs alot to call the fixer). On the other hand, I feel maybe I try to please other around and uplift myself that I am a good girl, special girl devine girl to do the thing that other can not do, scrifire my self-respect for the practical solution. Besides, I am afraid of being dispectful by others, then when it occurs, people think that it is my responsility. I admit that I am weak. I am learning to believe in myself. I need to ackn...
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Daily journal July 06 2026

 How was your 29s? It is time to be truthful to myself. Am I happy? Do I feel fulfilled?  I do not have answer. But I feel that there is a block inside me. I did not know what it is from until right at this moment that I am writing today journal. In fact,firstly, it is outcome of state that I have much desires than attempt/actions that I willing to trade-off. Second, I have tried to be covered with the mask of untruth. Always be masked to be good, wise, perfect person, pretend faking than I actually have. I ignore myself, ignore mistakes, and the bad. Wow, Right now, I understand about art of acceptance that people mention socially. Always be brave to live, to breath, to stand, to speak, to do, to think, to make mistakes, to socialize, to change, to learn, to be.. I learn to believe in myself. Do not shame myself. It is just jouney that I need to experience.  I rather wisely take proper actions than be full of vague imagination. Dream big and make it happen. -------------...
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